He sat down, scragged and disgruntled from weighing one deliberation after another. He could feel the vague patch of thought in his mind ever so slightly becoming less obscure. It was the umpteenth time he sadly realised the insane level of passivity with which he'd been watching from the sidelines his life drift.
Again, the urge to shirk it all off and get back to 'take it as it comes' eclipsed him.
But time was running out and he feared the worst. This made him doubt the credibility of the comforting time-is-the-healer doctrine.

He knew he had lost a lot of time. It dawned on him, as ablative and absolute, that every high degree of caution he'd taken in making inferences and every skeptical tendency he was muzzled in had constituted a hitherto undermined danger to life.
He realised how he quietly affirmed rather than suspend judgements, assented rather than negate them and invariably waited rather than attempt and err.
These traits had now been bred to the point where they'd become unbelievably strong.
More often than not, he seemed overwhelmed by the suddenness with which many effects stood out...which reflected how uncomfortable he was with change. He'd wholly repudiated the concept of cause and effect which in turn brought about all the passivity.
He'd rejoiced about the triumph of renouncing belief in his ego and become so misled by it that he found himself wallowing in self-pity a lot.

But now, it was time to act. Success which had been so elusive in the recent past had begun to offer itself in the smallest of packages. He had now clambered up to the revered generic space. It was all upto him now to discover, to innovate.
LIFE...that he once knew as paradoxically coincidental to the ironical tyrrany applicable to the unparalleled definition of reverse entropy now just seemed a euphemism for fun...chaotic fun even!
And then, amazed at his mental construct immigrating to such a highly dynamic dissociation matrix, he thought it best to confide in his Irish comrade, Bud.
Yes, he thought aloud, life is looking up!